Gratitude is not overrated

Okay, so I may have wasted a whole Saturday, thinking it was Friday. And now after praying Fajr, I discovered that it’s Sunday. However, yesterday was the past and now as I am writing is the present.

I didn’t sleep the whole night, again. It’s all due to my irresponsible use of my device, the smartphone. So, I decided to hide all my social media and entertainment apps until a certain time that I decided for myself would be appropriate to go through. I also watched the Netflix version of the book The Secret. Have some pretty convincing points in the documentary that I might even consider reading up the book. Already have it downloaded to my Playbook store. The main concept it focuses on is the Law of Attraction. Where thoughts become things and energy flows where the attention goes. Might go on some ideas of it relating it to Islam, perhaps even write a post about it. Who knows?

I managed to wake my sister for Fajr which is a great feat, I do know she didn’t really have a full’s night sleep, but she still woke up with very little resistance, which I am grateful for.

So, for this morning, I would like to list down the things I am grateful for. 

Firstly, as I mentioned above, I am grateful for the fact that my sister woke up to my calling to praying together. I have always mentioned that I would wake up early and pray together with her, but I have had the trouble to wake up early and in time for Fajr which usually begins around 5.15am. It went smoothly and even managed a prayer to our late mom, Caroline. So alhamdullilah for that.

Second, I am grateful for the home we have that have never failed to protect us from the external environment. Truly I am. I know how lucky I am compared to others whom I have known personally to not be as fortunate as I am for a bedroom of my own as well a comfy bed where I can snuggle in, bathroom where I do not have to deal with the faeces directly, fridge where I can store food to last and washing machines to aid in cleaning my clothes. I am so very grateful and thankful for everything my home has provided for me.

Thirdly, I am grateful for Aunty Pat. An experienced woman figure in my life that’s still present after my mom passed. She has been there for all of us and I can’t thank her enough. She has helped with the house expenses, the cooking, my sister who’s only 13 and all the praying services for my mother’s after death. Honestly, I have underappreciated her and I think I should do something for her in return. I will think of something.

I think I will need to plan out my day so I can do something productive. I primarily think my lack of productivity levels is probably due to my lack of scheduling, planning and routines. Well to revamp my daily plans for a little while as MCO is activated, I shall need to list out all the things I want and need to do for the present and the future. I have got to conquer the fear and to stop procrastinating. Baby steps, as Lucifer says (can’t believe I am quoting a not so original line from Lucifer)

My face has been dry, red and prone to cuts. Very uncomfortable and tempting. Trying out skin fasting at the very least. Just face cleanse at night and moisturizer day and night. A little SPF wouldn’t hurt too.

So sleepy now, my circadian time is just whack now as I forced myself to stay awake to be able to pray in time.

As an epilogue to this blog post, 

Gratitude is not overrated, in fact, it is very much needed and clearly undermined for what it's worth. Too many people of the world are always wanting and wanting that they have never stop to see what they do have.