Mummy, Mum, Mama and Mother

I had and still have many mother figures in my life. 

I lost three in my lifetime and now I like to think that there are many supportive aunties and older sister figures there for me. It's been particularly hard for me recently when I turned 23 without them. 

Truth be told, I've surpressing my loneliness and sadness, pushing far behind my mind because you can't earned money being sad, unfortunately. I don't want to come across as needy or spoiled but I want to be needy and spoiled right now. I want to be taken care of and not just by myself. 

I prayed to God everyday to grant my mother forgiveness and peace. Now I think I need to add another family member whom I would like to be healthy always. Of course I want all of my family to be healthy and happy but this particular person truly is my closest thing to a mother these days. Though I can't be entirely open with her but she seems to show her concern for my sister and I as close as our mom did.

It's my aunt Chochi, my mom's older sister whom she was close with along with Mama. She is also grieving in her own way for her two beloved sister. She live with her family all over the other side of town, basically the opposite of our direction. Had a sleepover at her place last weekend and planning another tomorrow (for a whole different reason). 

She's another gem that I am scared to lose so I'm praying so hard for her good health. Trying to make a lot of good memories with her as well. Maybe cooking sesh or Netflix binge watch. Right now traveling to South Korea together is one of my definite goal.

Meanwhile, on a whole different subject, my dad got a Canon G7X Mark II and I was shocked because it was there on the table for months. For your information, this camera is one of the most notable basic beginner vlogging cameras that Youtubers use. He seems to be inclined on creating Youtube content on his life. However, if he doesn't use it as much as he said he would, I would probably monopolized the camera for my own selfish uses (insert smirking face). Prolly for the SK trip (please PLEASE let it come true soon). 

Another update, thinking of purchasing a new laptop this year. And I SWEAR it would be a good one that does not LAG and have lots of storage and backlit keyboard for me to type in the dark 😏. I'd say, look me in the eye and tell me I'm lying. 

On this end note, I should probably blog more often. Not that there's any audience but I haven't been writing in my journal this year, maybe 3 times max.